On Letting Go. Or Not.

I have a confession to make. For the past 25 years I have, and still do, sleep with my Pillow Person, Sweet Dreams. I got her at age 7 when my family moved from Brooklyn to New Jersey, and I have loved her ever since. With me by her side, she has attended 4 years of college, lived in Spain for 5 months, backpacked through Europe, moved to New York City and welcomed a new person into our bed. I have set these loose expectations of when I would no longer sleep with her – when I moved in with a boy, or once I got married, and now of course, when I have my first child. But the thing is, I don’t want to no longer sleep with her. She has accompanied me to bed for 9,000+ nights, and for that she has suffered. She is now practically faceless, her fabric almost translucent, her insides lumpy. She has been sewn up hundreds of times (surgery I call it), she has lost limbs, her hair has fallen out, but no matter how many times I wash her, she smells like sleep and comfort to me, and my husband has grown to love her too.

So my question is – when should a grown woman no longer sleep with a stuffed animal (er, person)?? ┬áBecause at 32 years old, I am not ready to let go, and not sure I ever will be…

One thing that does make me feel ok with my little ‘issue’ – my college roommate and one of my closets friends has a 2 year old son and still sleeps with her teddy bear, Beary! And she says Beary and her sons’ stuffed monkey are besties, which is sweet, or strange – depends how you look at it!

Beary and Miller's Monkey - Best Friends!

7 thoughts on “On Letting Go. Or Not.

  1. Hi Aimee, This is your mom’s friend Maurine. I am 37 and I sleep with a blanket my mom made for me when I was a baby. I can sleep without it, but I would rather not. I also kept thinking I would get rid of it when I get married, have a child etc. It is still here. However, I am trying to make sure my son, 2 1/2 doesn’t become attached to a stuffed animal. We rotate the animals that he sleeps with.

  2. I still sleep with Mamoo and not only has Shane grown to love him, but Knicki knows he is not one of her toys! And I have gotten Shane hooked on his “loveys” b/c there is nothing like the comfort of a soft, little friend to help you sleep..clearly we all agree on that!

  3. I am so happy I am not alone in this world! There are others like me who can’t let go of their sleeping companions from childhood. My dad says he thinks it means I had a good childhood and my husband thinks it’s crazy. Teddy likes to find his way into Brad’s arms in the morning when I place him there as I leave for work. ;) That’ll show him crazy…..

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